Open Diary

Today amidst the noise I found an inner peace which filled me with a complete state of euphoria. I closed my eyes and took time out to listen to my heartbeat and embrace the wind as it gently touches my skin. Not to feel a sense of relaxation but rather a sense of appreciation. For the first time in a really long time I felt completely at peace with God. There I sat feeling a sense of self assurance despite all the world decided to throw at me this week. But I decided then and there that like a Goddess I would walk because I felt a sense of happiness that I somehow thought I had lost along the way. With my eyes closed and in that very moment I could do anything if I put all trust in the creator.

So slowly I opened my eyes ready to take my new found confidence and expose it to the world like streaker at a world cup game. This freedom and happiness was something I wanted to world to see. But there before me as I opened my eyes was an ideal reason for lust and temptation. No longer was I thinking about this liberty that had pounced upon me in my brief moment of thoughts with God. The incarnation of my personal devil appeared on my shoulder and ever so gently she whispered "lust". Lust indeed for this creature was magnificent. No true impure thoughts of him but merely an admiration for his magnificent presence. 


Not quite sure how well the feeling of lust settles within the deep parts of my heart. But one thing is for sure it is a sin I divulge in way too often!